New week, new start! I'm not sure why we always wait until a week starts to begin any type of workout or diet program, I guess psychologically it gives us a sense of "one last horrah" before we begin. Last week I started to do Insanity again, while I made it through the workout I realized after that I was not in any type of shape to do Insanity and that I would need to start out with something less intense. That's what happens when you stop working out for nearly 2 months!
Yesterday I decided that I needed to do some type of workout and I reached into my vaults and found "Bob Harpers Cardio Max." This workout starts out with a 30 minute cardio routine and over 6 weeks builds into a 50 minute workout. Now the cardio workout while it made me sweat was a breeze compared to Shaun T! But then again (as Matt said yesterday) anything is a breeze after Shaun T! Incidentally several of the moves that were in Bob's video were similar to Shaun T's, however less intense. I did enjoy the workout, but it was over before I really got into it. I may add on the additional workouts before the weeks are up and see how I fare.
I'm not really doing this for the program itself, more so to have some form of workout to do each day that has some level of structure. I find when I leave it to myself, not much gets accomplished so having a structured workout in place assures I actually get up and do something constructive with my time and burn calories! We will see how this goes and if I feel like I see any difference after a week or so. If all else fails, there's always Jillian and her videos right? (I'd rather slit my wrists.....) My hope is that after I get back into a routine of working out and build up my fitness level again, I can get back into Insanity.
That's all I have for today!
Wishing you success in your goals!
Keith
Tuesday, August 7, 2012
Wednesday, August 1, 2012
Is skinny really a goal? I almost died, again!
Yesterday I finally bit the bullet and decided to get back into Insanity. Yeah, I'm not really sure what I was thinking or why but it was all the hellish torture I remembered from before and it was the day 1 workout! As I forced myself through the craziness, I had about 15 minutes left and almost decided to turn it off. Then I thought to myself (as I lay on the floor, heaving for breath and writhing in agony) "You only have 15 minutes left, and 4 of those minutes are for stretching and cool down! You can do it!" So I got up, hit the play button and pushed through the final minutes of day 1. I almost died, again!
After the workout was over, I lay there thinking...why am I doing this? Is it to feel better about myself, is it just to be able to gloat that I can wear size Small? Is it just so I can say I'm skinny? And it hit me...is being skinny really a goal? And if so, how do we measure when we've hit said goal. I've lost nearly 40lbs since I began this journey last November. I said to myself then, once I've lost 40lbs that was my goal and I would be satisfied. Now, staring that 40lb loss in the face, I'm still not happy. I still feel fat and overweight and unattractive, chunky, husky, pudgy, soft, stocky, heavy etc. I realize there are people out there that are far bigger than I am, but they aren't me and I'm not them. We are our own worst critics and no one knows how we feel but ourselves. I know I'm not fat (maybe a lil chunky?) but I'm still not super happy about how I look in the mirror.
I entitled my blog as such because this really is a NEVER ENDING quest. Even when you hit what you think is your "goal", then you spend your life working to maintain. Most of time when we hit our "goals" then we want to set new goals and go even further. It's non-stop. We obsess over this so much that we drive ourselves crazy trying any and everything we can to lose weight. We count points, we pop pills, we run, we lift weights, we starve ourselves, we "shake our Sensa".... there isn't anything that we won't do if it helps us lose weight. I'm going to try and stop obsessing over my weight so much and just work toward feeling better about me. In my mind I feel like I need to lose 15-20 more pounds to "look good", but there's no way to know that. What if I look good after 10lbs or what if I lose 20lbs and still think I look fat? I'm over setting a goal of a specific weight and I'm going to focus on how I look and feel. If I look and feel good at 170lbs then that is great!
With all that said, I still haven't decided if I'm going to attempt to continue Insanity or just go into general workout mode, maybe daily walk/runs, or using Insanity as a workout a couple of times per week vs. a full 9 week routine. Trial and error. Onward we go. No looking back, only forward....
That's all I have for today.
Wishing you success in your goals.
Keith
After the workout was over, I lay there thinking...why am I doing this? Is it to feel better about myself, is it just to be able to gloat that I can wear size Small? Is it just so I can say I'm skinny? And it hit me...is being skinny really a goal? And if so, how do we measure when we've hit said goal. I've lost nearly 40lbs since I began this journey last November. I said to myself then, once I've lost 40lbs that was my goal and I would be satisfied. Now, staring that 40lb loss in the face, I'm still not happy. I still feel fat and overweight and unattractive, chunky, husky, pudgy, soft, stocky, heavy etc. I realize there are people out there that are far bigger than I am, but they aren't me and I'm not them. We are our own worst critics and no one knows how we feel but ourselves. I know I'm not fat (maybe a lil chunky?) but I'm still not super happy about how I look in the mirror.
I entitled my blog as such because this really is a NEVER ENDING quest. Even when you hit what you think is your "goal", then you spend your life working to maintain. Most of time when we hit our "goals" then we want to set new goals and go even further. It's non-stop. We obsess over this so much that we drive ourselves crazy trying any and everything we can to lose weight. We count points, we pop pills, we run, we lift weights, we starve ourselves, we "shake our Sensa".... there isn't anything that we won't do if it helps us lose weight. I'm going to try and stop obsessing over my weight so much and just work toward feeling better about me. In my mind I feel like I need to lose 15-20 more pounds to "look good", but there's no way to know that. What if I look good after 10lbs or what if I lose 20lbs and still think I look fat? I'm over setting a goal of a specific weight and I'm going to focus on how I look and feel. If I look and feel good at 170lbs then that is great!
With all that said, I still haven't decided if I'm going to attempt to continue Insanity or just go into general workout mode, maybe daily walk/runs, or using Insanity as a workout a couple of times per week vs. a full 9 week routine. Trial and error. Onward we go. No looking back, only forward....
That's all I have for today.
Wishing you success in your goals.
Keith
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